The night before...reflection.

So tonite is the night before our second son will be born. The beginning of our life as a family of 4:) I spent the day playing with Aaron as much as I could and basically giving him as much attention as possible just trying to make the most of our last few days of him being an only child. I have really enjoyed the last 3 years of it just being me and him. He is the sweetest, funniest, and most fun kid I have ever been around...not biased or anything. He is very easy going and loves to be with his mama! Hopefully I will do a separate 3 year post for him since I will have a lot of help in the beginning after the new little guy comes. It is now midnight and I have to be up in 4 hours so that we can get to the hospital by 5am for an induction. Why am I not sleeping you ask? For the past several weeks I have had insomnia and restless leg syndrome REALLY bad. Even if I could fall asleep, either my legs feel like they are running a marathon, or some part of my body falls asleep because I have been in the same position for over 20min. Oh the joys of pregnancy. So since I am no where close to sleep, I thought I would blog all of my jumbled up thoughts. Tomorrow is full of mixed feelings. Mostly excitement:) I CANNOT WAIT to see what this little guy looks like. I just want to stare at him and talk to him about our family. If I am being honest (which I am) I am in a much better place with this baby than with Aaron. I was more fearful and anxious with Aaron the night before my induction...mostly because I had no idea what to expect with the birth process or what having a child was going to do to our lives. It was a big adjustment. I have much more peace this time and an not so anxious or fearful...lots more excited and full of anticipation for the change. Aaron is so excited to meet his little brother. I have a few concerns about him adjusting to a new baby getting a lot of attention, but overall I think he will do great. He LOVES babies and is so sweet with them. I love to hear him talk about his little brother and all the things he will teach his little brother. He kisses and hugs my belly all the time, it's sweet. I am sure we will have some adjustments to work through, but that's normal...right? I also can't wait to see Mark with another little boy. He is the best, and I repeat, the BEST daddy ever. He is so fun and Aaron LOVES his daddy. I think I hear the phrase "when is my daddy coming home?" about 150 times a day. I really like hearing them play together, and especially love hearing Mark read and sing to Aaron. He teaches him new songs all the time and they memorize scripture together every night. He is always talking to him about helping people and teaching him how to love everyone. I really appreciate and cherish my husband for showing Aaron who Jesus is in his words and actions. I can't wait to see it with new baby too! To Aaron: Our first son. We love you. There are no words to describe the joy you bring to your daddy and my life. You keep us on our toes and are always making us laugh. We have loved the past 3 years of having you as our only child. We can't wait to see how you use your gifts God has given you for His mission. We know you will be the best big brother ever. To baby boy #2: Sorry you don't have a name yet...ha. We WILL name you, don't worry. God has blessed us with another little boy and we are so excited to meet you and finally see your sweet face. We can't wait to learn your personality and introduce you to your new life. Aaron has talked non-stop about you since we told him you were in Mama's belly. There are so many people that love you already besides your parents and big brother. They can't wait to meet you and love on you. Your daddy and I love you so much and will see you very soon. Please come quickly:) Here I am at 39 weeks preggo with baby #2. Definitely ready for it to be over:)