The good, the bad, and the ugly...

I'm gonna make it, I'm gonna make it, I'm gonna make it....

This is the phrase I keep repeating to myself over and over. One word to describe my current state of mind is....EXHAUSTED! I am completely and utterly exhausted. I think the hardest part about having 3 kids (so far) is not getting any rest. Multitasking is actually not a big deal, it's the lack of sleep and trying to continue to function day and night is proving to be difficult. Eden isn't sleeping well at night and whens he finally decides to 'pass out,' it's about 5:30am and Corban starts his morning crying to get up about 6am. They don't all three nap at the same time either. Eden has had a few good nights, which gives me hope. For now, She is having a lot of gas and reflux right now so I can't just 'let her cry it out' yet. Corban is struggling with lack of attention and it feels like he is whining all the time. Sweet Aaron tries to help out, but I can tell he is getting his feelings hurt a lot because of my lack of patience. Since Mark is on bedrest I feel mostly like a single parent. So now that I have complained like crazy I will make sure to mention some happy thoughts....
-My boys are playing really well together. They have their moments of fighting, but for the most part they do great. Thought, as I am typing, they are not having one of those great moments.
-I am grateful for a husband who doesn't freak out if the house isn't clean, dinner isn't made, or laundry isn't caught up. That takes stress off of me, and right now that means everything!
-Eden is a good baby. Other than a little reflux, she is a joy to have in our house. She doesn't fuss or cry hardly at all:) She should start smiling soon!!
-I have some AWESOME friends and family. My sister, mom, and in-laws have sacrificed their time and energy so much to help out and I appreciate it more than they know. Seriously, I don't know if I can ever repay them for their help and support. I also have the bestest friends there is. I know that not everyone has that blessing and I am very grateful for it! We have had meals, phone calls, gifts, and much more.

As my mother says to me all the time, "This too shall pass." I know it will. And I am sure one day I will wish the days back when my kids are little. I am trying to keep that in mind. Until then, I'm gonna keep on keepin on...and try and keep my patience and have some fun in between. I just wanted to write down what is going on in our lives right now and hopefully will look back on this one day when we have new challenges and remind myself of these days:)